The mental fuckity-fuck you go through, not to mention the upheaval to your body's normal functions is REAL! My body is not readjusting at all. My normal every day "set point" for my weight is way up from what it's been for the past 20+ years! I'm at 151 compared to my normal 126-128 set point.
One day are major feelings self hatred. Like I can't even stand to look in the mirror type hate. Clothing can hide a lot that people are not aware of...OH MY GOD BECKY, look at my GUT!
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| Week 1 |
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| this pic was so PAINFUL to take, much less POST! |
The very next day I'm "ok" with myself and think I'm not doing/looking so badly. But I know that's a lie, cuz as I just said, clothes hide A LOT!!!!!
Here's the thing tho, I'm NOT giving up! It's not in my DNA. As a matter of fact, I've decided to kick myself into gear and see what I can do to make some changes. *fingers crossed* Oh, and I also went for some blood work to see if things are looking "normal".
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| The start of Operation Bring Bling Back, end of week 2 |
XOXOXOXO, BLING!
