Feelin a bit CRAY CRAY

Entering day 6 of eating only oats as my carb of the day...followed by 4 meals of fish/veg...finishing off with a final meal of only protein. I think I am literally LOSING MY EVER LOVING MIND! I am constantly thinking of my CHEAT DAY, Aug 25th!!!

My weight is  down to 111.2 as of today from 128 when I started training for this but, I'm still not happy with my ass/back of thigh area...it's still jiggly/cellulite-ish. I'm so worried it won't be gone for show day!  I really don't want to let my training team down. We're working legs twice a week now...and I'm hitting hammies on my own as well a couple of times a week.

I DO NOT want to be THAT GIRL on the stage that everyone says, OH MY GOD, SHE SHOULD NOT BE UP THERE. How embarassing is that?!! I honestly feel a bit like I'm not in control of anything anymore.

So back to my CHEAT DAY....LOL! I have too many options...I just don't know what to do!!! I definitely want a YUMMY breakfast of either French Toast with powdered sugar and maybe pecans/caramel or maybe a strawberry and cream cheese filled kind :)

For regular food I'd love to hit Mellow Mushroom for some derrishous Kozmic Karma pizza!

But I also want to have a Ron Burgundy burger with OMG cheese fries from Grease Burger!!

Sushi sounds amazing as well..maybe a Sex on The Moon roll!!

For DESSERT...I'm dreaming of Chocolate Thunder from Down Under from Outback Steakhouse!

Or a warm carrot cake from J. Alexander's (which also has an amazing burger),

Maybe a chocolate chip cookie sandwich made at Sloan's Ice Cream Shop...

And I just saw a Baskin Robbin's commercial for their flavor of the month which has honey roasted nuts, salted caramel, and oreos in vanilla ice cream! WTF?! SERIOUSLY

 I can get most of these things in my BACKYARD as I live in a condo inside an area called CityPlace. Basically it's the downtown hub of Palm Beach County and houses all kinds of bars/restaurants and shopping!!!!

WHAT AM I GONNA DOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Then only to start back over on Monday following my show to prepare for another that will be 5 weeks out!! I AM A GLUTTON FOR PUNISHMENT!

XOXOXO, CRAZED DERRANGED & HAAAAANGRY Vicky/Sh0ewh0re7/Bling